Q: I have struggled with fatigue all of my life, possibly related to significant early traumas. At 47, after twenty-five years or so of intense healing work I am starting to feel like my head is above water enough that I can step up to practicing more fully the work I love – psychotherapy. Then another dumping wave of energy struggles comes and I wonder if I will ever get free of what feels like quicksand. What to do to keep my energy flowing enough to work at least part-time?
A: The first thing I want to say is that you have a very, very powerful chart. Many of the aspects in the chart talk about you having abundant energy. Yet it is an equally powerful chart because of some of the more difficult aspects. Some of these are clearly locking up your energy. The other thing I want to say to you is that you are right in the middle of your Jupiter return. When you were born, Jupiter was in Leo, in your house of career, which on its own is an extraordinarily positive expression of grace (lifelong grace) around professional expansion, openings and possibilities. So it is a very auspicious time and Jupiter is in fact empowering and encouraging you to step up professionally. In fact it has been doing so for the last nine months.
On the other hand, it is equally understandable that you have struck difficulties with your available energy. It is very clear that these difficulties have to do with three major sources. Firstly, your warrior energies, both masculine and feminine, have clearly imploded. Secondly, you were born with the Chiron/Saturn conjunction in Pisces in the middle of your sixth house – the house of health, service and work. Thirdly, you have this unbelievably powerful combination of Pluto/Shiva/Uranus conjunct in Virgo in your twelfth house – the house of the unconscious.
All in all, you are an exceptionally gifted and multi-talented individual. Having gone through a similar journey with chronic fatigue, I can very much empathise with you. I can equally say to you from my own life experience, that work successfully with these three issues will not just re-energise your life, but allow you to do some extraordinary work as indeed you must and are drawn to as a soul, let alone as an individual.
So ultimately, the news is good, but there is more work to do. The other exceptional thing about your chart is that, to the very minutes of a degree, as I speak and write this, you have an exact version of progressed New Moon in that your progressed Sun is perfectly conjunct your Pisces Moon at 12’ 12’ Pisces. So this is very much a new beginnings year for you, something that has been building for a number of years and is at its maximum point. The biological correspondence to this is the exact point that sperm fertilises the egg to produce the cataclysmic cosmic and biological expansion that is conception.
So you are indeed conceiving a whole new era of your life. In some ways this is the end of a very long karmic cycle and the beginning of a brand new one.
Now to the lock-ups of your energy.
Firstly, you have Mars in Libra conjunct Medusa, squaring your Capricorn Sun, Mercury and Eros. If you were here I would be asking you in the course of your own personal healing, and in the course of your psychotherapy training, whether you have been able to get in touch with the very raw, lethal and primitive level of rage in your system. I ask this because working with this level of rage, particularly its implosion in your system, is what sucks a lot of your physical vitality out of your body, out of your sheer physical energy.
Classically, in this situation, I recommend primal work, breathwork, anything that is explosive and expressive, which allows you to drop out of the civilised aspects of your mind and become raw energy. This raw energy can be primitive, but at the same time it is liberating to really access that level of expression. What an extraordinarily powerful conjunction, which turned around can fuel your system incredibly! Both Mars and Medusa are extraordinary warrior energies. Medusa as dark goddess deepens the sheer psychological, spiritual and sexual potency of Mars.
This energy system is replicated by the fact that your progressed Mars is conjunct your Lilith asteroid, which will be exact in four months. So this territory is very much up for grabs. With Mars joining Lilith while Medusa is being activated by transiting Ceres and Hecate, is saying that there is a lot of healing grace and power available to you here. The more you can get to mobilising the toxicity that comes with such an implosion through both therapeutic and spiritual mechanisms, then the more the awesome sacred power of the deep feminine can work its way with your Mars energy.
I am actually feeling very excited for you, because the potential of totally transforming your life is inherent in this. Again, in my own life this coincided with the period when I discovered primal therapy. Up until that point I was a potentially a multi-talented individual who could not engage in the world in any meaningful or powerful way, but during a couple of years of that deep work turned my energy completely around and so much has come from it. So I heartily recommend that you get into this very, very deep material and work it in whatever ways are available to you.
Now as for Chiron and Saturn in Pisces (particularly Chiron in Pisces) this is one of the most obvious ‘psychic sponge’ positions in the chart. Any strong Chiron position (in any sign) highlights a karmic tendency to absorb other people’s pain, which occurs through a form of deep psychic osmosis. The Saturnian tendency (at least initially in one’s life) to create a lot of defensiveness can suppress the brilliance of Chiron’s extraordinary healer capacity when they occupy the same position.
Now you are in the midst of your Chiron return (when Chiron comes back to its birth position) an extraordinary turning point in one’s life (particularly for people in our trade). At this time you get to re-visit some of the deepest wounds, including your tendency to absorb other people’s pain and can work its origins to therefore shift it around.
In the Chiron return, there is then the awesome possibility of doing some of the deepest healing in your life to date. The deeper you go, the more the healing Shakti (as well as the awesome intuitive intelligence Chiron in Pisces) can work its way into your physical body and into your work life.
You are not yet at the peak of this process. The exact peak of your Chiron return is June/July 2015 and there are subsequent peaks in March/April 2016, and around September through to December 2016. So you very much are a wounded healer in deep process. These simultaneous processes, both the releasing of a lot of absorbed material going right back to your childhood (and even to your birth and conception) along with the deeper awakening of this awesome healer inside you.
This is great and is not simply work to be done psychotherapeutically; it is also about gathering powerful, meditative and spiritual processes and practices that you can use daily to flush out what you absorb as an extraordinarily sensitive individual in the course of your day-to-day life, let alone if you are working with clients.
This brings us to the third major potential energy lock up. That is the Pluto/Shiva/Uranus conjunction in the twelfth house. Anything in the twelfth house tends to be (at least initially) energies that are not available to use in the outer world. The twelfth house is also a house of mysticism and a house of the underworld journey. So alongside your psychological processes, this is another reason why I deeply encourage you to connect with very deep meditation practices. In particular, those drawn from Shaivite traditions (that is connecting to the Shiva archetype in Indian spirituality) and also to the Shakti traditions (the sacred goddess traditions within India and other cultures).
As you are both mystic and psychotherapist, the more you can honour both, the more they will support each other. The two working well will make you an extraordinarily brilliant therapist. I particularly draw your attention to the fantastic book by Sally Kempton, called ‘Awakening Shakti’ where she describes and gives spiritual technology for using the purificatory powers of the Shiva and Shakti traditions (the sacred masculine and feminine). These can act as a vehicle for re-claiming the awesome spiritual power of both, which is so profoundly potent within you.
Your progressed Sun/Moon conjunction in Pisces is significantly occurring as a new beginning at the beginning of your house of work, healing and service. So YES, YES, and YES, it is time to begin. We can say that because you are in the midst of your Chiron return, there is still a lot of psychic, spiritual and emotional flux happening within your system. Therefore, go part-time and set up your practice in a way that is accommodating and fluid with your own energies, and your own energy needs. You can then have the necessary time-out to attend to these deep processes.
All the very, very best, go well and deeply. I would love some feedback from you in two years’ time if that is at all possible.
Cheers Daniel.
All in all, you are an exceptionally gifted and multi-talented individual. Having gone through a similar journey with chronic fatigue, I can very much empathise with you. I can equally say to you from my own life experience, that work successfully with these three issues will not just re-energise your life, but allow you to do some extraordinary work as indeed you must and are drawn to as a soul, let alone as an individual.
So ultimately, the news is good, but there is more work to do. The other exceptional thing about your chart is that, to the very minutes of a degree, as I speak and write this, you have an exact version of progressed New Moon in that your progressed Sun is perfectly conjunct your Pisces Moon at 12’ 12’ Pisces. So this is very much a new beginnings year for you, something that has been building for a number of years and is at its maximum point. The biological correspondence to this is the exact point that sperm fertilises the egg to produce the cataclysmic cosmic and biological expansion that is conception.
So you are indeed conceiving a whole new era of your life. In some ways this is the end of a very long karmic cycle and the beginning of a brand new one.
Now to the lock-ups of your energy.
Firstly, you have Mars in Libra conjunct Medusa, squaring your Capricorn Sun, Mercury and Eros. If you were here I would be asking you in the course of your own personal healing, and in the course of your psychotherapy training, whether you have been able to get in touch with the very raw, lethal and primitive level of rage in your system. I ask this because working with this level of rage, particularly its implosion in your system, is what sucks a lot of your physical vitality out of your body, out of your sheer physical energy.
Classically, in this situation, I recommend primal work, breathwork, anything that is explosive and expressive, which allows you to drop out of the civilised aspects of your mind and become raw energy. This raw energy can be primitive, but at the same time it is liberating to really access that level of expression. What an extraordinarily powerful conjunction, which turned around can fuel your system incredibly! Both Mars and Medusa are extraordinary warrior energies. Medusa as dark goddess deepens the sheer psychological, spiritual and sexual potency of Mars.
This energy system is replicated by the fact that your progressed Mars is conjunct your Lilith asteroid, which will be exact in four months. So this territory is very much up for grabs. With Mars joining Lilith while Medusa is being activated by transiting Ceres and Hecate, is saying that there is a lot of healing grace and power available to you here. The more you can get to mobilising the toxicity that comes with such an implosion through both therapeutic and spiritual mechanisms, then the more the awesome sacred power of the deep feminine can work its way with your Mars energy.
I am actually feeling very excited for you, because the potential of totally transforming your life is inherent in this. Again, in my own life this coincided with the period when I discovered primal therapy. Up until that point I was a potentially a multi-talented individual who could not engage in the world in any meaningful or powerful way, but during a couple of years of that deep work turned my energy completely around and so much has come from it. So I heartily recommend that you get into this very, very deep material and work it in whatever ways are available to you.
Now as for Chiron and Saturn in Pisces (particularly Chiron in Pisces) this is one of the most obvious ‘psychic sponge’ positions in the chart. Any strong Chiron position (in any sign) highlights a karmic tendency to absorb other people’s pain, which occurs through a form of deep psychic osmosis. The Saturnian tendency (at least initially in one’s life) to create a lot of defensiveness can suppress the brilliance of Chiron’s extraordinary healer capacity when they occupy the same position.
Now you are in the midst of your Chiron return (when Chiron comes back to its birth position) an extraordinary turning point in one’s life (particularly for people in our trade). At this time you get to re-visit some of the deepest wounds, including your tendency to absorb other people’s pain and can work its origins to therefore shift it around.
In the Chiron return, there is then the awesome possibility of doing some of the deepest healing in your life to date. The deeper you go, the more the healing Shakti (as well as the awesome intuitive intelligence Chiron in Pisces) can work its way into your physical body and into your work life.
You are not yet at the peak of this process. The exact peak of your Chiron return is June/July 2015 and there are subsequent peaks in March/April 2016, and around September through to December 2016. So you very much are a wounded healer in deep process. These simultaneous processes, both the releasing of a lot of absorbed material going right back to your childhood (and even to your birth and conception) along with the deeper awakening of this awesome healer inside you.
This is great and is not simply work to be done psychotherapeutically; it is also about gathering powerful, meditative and spiritual processes and practices that you can use daily to flush out what you absorb as an extraordinarily sensitive individual in the course of your day-to-day life, let alone if you are working with clients.
This brings us to the third major potential energy lock up. That is the Pluto/Shiva/Uranus conjunction in the twelfth house. Anything in the twelfth house tends to be (at least initially) energies that are not available to use in the outer world. The twelfth house is also a house of mysticism and a house of the underworld journey. So alongside your psychological processes, this is another reason why I deeply encourage you to connect with very deep meditation practices. In particular, those drawn from Shaivite traditions (that is connecting to the Shiva archetype in Indian spirituality) and also to the Shakti traditions (the sacred goddess traditions within India and other cultures).
As you are both mystic and psychotherapist, the more you can honour both, the more they will support each other. The two working well will make you an extraordinarily brilliant therapist. I particularly draw your attention to the fantastic book by Sally Kempton, called ‘Awakening Shakti’ where she describes and gives spiritual technology for using the purificatory powers of the Shiva and Shakti traditions (the sacred masculine and feminine). These can act as a vehicle for re-claiming the awesome spiritual power of both, which is so profoundly potent within you.
Your progressed Sun/Moon conjunction in Pisces is significantly occurring as a new beginning at the beginning of your house of work, healing and service. So YES, YES, and YES, it is time to begin. We can say that because you are in the midst of your Chiron return, there is still a lot of psychic, spiritual and emotional flux happening within your system. Therefore, go part-time and set up your practice in a way that is accommodating and fluid with your own energies, and your own energy needs. You can then have the necessary time-out to attend to these deep processes.
All the very, very best, go well and deeply. I would love some feedback from you in two years’ time if that is at all possible.
Cheers Daniel.